11w 1d - I think OHSS might have subsided! I guess we’ll see on Friday if this is babies or food! ;)
(11 weeks 1 day by scan) Wow…it’s quite exciting to get to this point! I wouldn’t say the time has flown by but I’m amazed and so grateful to be at this point already!
Scan on Friday…still petrified…will things be ok? Will we still have two? Will we have any? It’s crazy where my mind can go if I let it! I am quite zen though and am really loving being pregnant…please let it be ok universe!!
The other exciting news is that all being well on Friday, we’ll be boarding our flight for our summer holiday that night!! Woo!!!!! So hoping….
Maternity bra fitting…
I gave in since boobs are exploding from normal bras…terrifying to make the leap but necessary!!!
I’m tall and so my DD cup size doesn’t seem so big but my new cup size is F!!!!! Already? I can nearly fit the cup on my head!!
So hoping all is still going well in Le Belly…4 days til scan…shit scared!!
Still difficult…
I am so happy to be pregnant…so terrified that our dreams will be shattered along the way, just like they have been so many times…
The thing is…although I am beyond happy at the thought that we may actually become parents this year, it’s hard to ignore that had my last pregnancy not ended in miscarriage, I’d be almost 36 weeks pregnant right now…it’s still sad!
I’ve also been to two first birthday parties this week and again sometimes I think about how if our first IVF had worked, our babe would be one this week! Weird, eh?
I don’t want this to seem like I’m ungrateful…I’m so so damn grateful and really hope my little two are growing…i just need to acknowledge some of the tough stuff that doesn’t just get erased from memory…not ever…
My belly is confusing me…how much is OHSS and is any of it babies?? Either way it’s MASSIVE! I’m running out of baggy clothes that don’t make me look like a hobo! I cannot express how much I love my maternity leggings…I’ve ordered more…and if all is still well I’m buying new bras this weekend…the boobs are exploding out of my current bras!
Keep growing belly…the first time in my life I want to see my waistline increase!
(10w1d according to last scan) I feel a lot calmer this week…still terrified at the thought of our scan next week but feeling the zen!
Still feeling exhausted a lot of the time, nausea is quite horrible between breakfast and lunch and then comes in bouts the rest of the day! Heartburn comes and goes and this past week I’ve has a lot of headaches! The thirst is still insane…and the hunger comes and goes! My boobs still don’t hurt but my nipples are so damn itchy and get sore! I’ve said it before and I’ll say it every time…I will not complain! Just hoping everyday that my little ones are doing ok!
One day at a time…
Scan booked…
I’m so nervous…I’ve booked our 12week scan! Why does it fill me with so much fear? Most people want more scans…but they completely terrify me!
I’ve been having a nervous couple of days…I think in part due to the fact that my boobs are less sore and although I have got nausea pretty much throughout the day, it’s not bad and compared to what I read others go through, it’s really manageable! I’m hoping I’m just lucky…please let me be lucky!
I am enjoying being pregnant, but there are constant horror stories going round and round in my head…I hate that I don’t have any innocence! It’s good to be informed but what I’ve read and heard and experienced through others has me really freaked some days!
I do continue with one day at a time…I keep begging the universe to make it all ok…my 2 week to scan is going to be a tough one!! At least we fly to Portugal that night…I’m hoping we’ll be smiling all the way…I hope!
9w2d - belly hasn’t changed much since last week but I think people are starting to look in that area suspiciously…or I’m paranoid!
Please be growing and healthy babies!
(or 9w1d according to scan)
So for some reason 9weeks has a lot of importance placed on it…I think mainly because a friend and my SIL both had missed m/cs at this date. I hope every day that the little two are doing well!
I had my midwife appointment yesterday…lots of paperwork and lots of talking about the next 31weeks which I haven’t done much!! Eek! Midwife was lovely…she went through everything and explained that I would be an obstetric led case due to the IVF/OHSS/Twins. We spoke about the tests I need to have, birthing options etc…so incredibly surreal but I feel so grateful to be experiencing it!
Last week I felt like belly shape/size is changing and I asked the midwife whether it was too early for me to be showing and she said “not really, especially not with twins”. When DH got home I told him that some of my swollen belly might actually be his babies…I sincerely hope so!!!
In other news…I’ve pulled a muscle in my back…ouchie! It feels a bit better today but it’s not pleasant! Also someone (a man…say no more) asked if I was “expecting” yesterday…I panicked and said “no”! I may struggle to hide this for much longer!
One day at a time continues…
8weeks 1day (or 2days if I go by scan) - ohss still going strong although belly is feeling different…lots of stretching and twinges…left ovary is still sore but I think it’s getting squished by uterus!
Hoping it’s all going ok in there! 🙏
Sooooo happy to post this but a little nervous! Hoping my babes are growing and are raspberry sized now!
I’ve had nausea for three days now…almost all day once I’ve had breakfast…as I’ve said before…I hope it’s a sign things are ok!
Actually dared to order a pack of bump bands and maternity leggings…mainly because of my ohss bump…no baby bump yet obviously! I was so scared to press “buy”!
One day at a time continues…
I think…
The sickness might have kicked in…all day yesterday and since getting up today! No puking though thankfully!
I wanted it…so I better not say another word! Just hope it means bubs are alright!
Surreal experience…
Yesterday I went to the GP and actually had to say, “I had a 7week scan on Wednesday and I’m pregnant with twins” - I cannot tell you how much it’s blowing my mind!
On the one hand I’m excited to be here on the other I now feel like my biggest dream came true and I’m terrified of losing it! Still having to take it one day at a time!
The doctor was lovely…went though the referral process and gave me a bunch of magazines and things to read. He also decided that due to my situation (twins, OHSS, IVF pregnancy etc) he’s recommending that I have obstetrician led care as opposed to midwife led care…it just means I’d be more closely monitored! I’m certainly not complaining about that!!
Such a weird and wonderful place to be…I’m grateful for every day that I’m experiencing it…I just feel so damn vulnerable! A friend lost one of her twins - she found out yesterday at 11w4d scan…heartbroken for her…I’m so in love with these little two already and know that she must have such conflicting emotions right now! It’s all such a roller-coaster!
DH is still being amazing!! I love him more and more each day! I’m feeling ok…nausea comes and goes in waves, heartburn and indigestion come after most meals and I could sleep for England!! I hope that means my little ones are ok!
7w1d - OHSS still making that bloated belly!!!
Ohss update…
In all the excitement I forgot to mention how my ovaries are doing! They’re both still enlarged…around 6cm but some of the follicles are settling, which is good news!
To be honest…I have no problem with this ohss!! None whatsoever!!
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